I am two days in recovery from my surgery and having to do a lot of physical adjustment alone is challenging. I don’t know if it’s the effects of the medication I’m on or the medication, silence, and pain that’s causing me to fall into the same sin I said I would be done with. The revisit of my past has played with something internal as well. When I heard from someone I least expected, it triggered something I thought I was strong enough to stand against. So what is it that has brought this unwanted lust? Two days is too much. I won’t allow this to take over or to grab hold of me and keep me from living a pure, whole, healthy life. So I deleted all my past messages on every device and I made up my mind that I will not struggle with this. I have the strength to overcome this. I won’t let this be my story this year or my struggle through this recovery. Regardless of the medication in my system or past thoughts, I won’t let this take over me. God’s love and grace has forgiven me and purified me. I have been made new with Him.